Depression Poems

Why

2007-09-29T20:15:00.000-07:00

Why

why do i feel so lost
why do i feel so alone
why can't i have love
why can't i be loved
people stare at me
like i don't belong
maybe i don't belong
why do i cry
please my love
here me cry out for you
give me your heart
set me free from this
darkness that smothers
my soul
say you will stay with me
and never abandon me
in my time of need
hurry my love im fading
fast

written by KEL

bliss

2007-09-29T19:38:00.001-07:00

I sit here in my own little
world. the only thing
i can think of is you.
you are my world my life,my love
im hurting inside
cause i can't be with you
your touch,your sweet lips on mine
the more i think of you . the
more of the darkness surrounds
me. im afraid of losing you
im afraid being trap in this
dark cruel world and not having you
by myside. i can hear the pounding of my
heart
it beats for you my love
but i only see darkness
oh my love it is getting darker
where are you mylove
im afraid im so afraid
please come to me my love
im afraid im slipping further
into bliss

written by KEL

An Angels Broken Wing

2007-08-30T15:36:00.000-07:00

An Angels Broken Wing

© By Jennifer L. Hamel

Once the girl saw her reflection All she could see was every imperfection These broken pieces can't judge her anymore The mirror is now shattered on the floor The girl picks up a piece and slits her wrists in hopes of not living anymore It did not work so she tried again She picks up the gun and sticks it to her head Her mind is going crazy with memories she had shared how could she even dare she knows she has a family that really does care as she sits in the chair At the TV she glares Her dad walks by with a face she can’t forget Everything she did she starts to regret Every thought has crossed her mind she is terrified Its half past nine And getting really late She can't remember when she last ate She goes to the kitchen in search of some food She sees pills on the counter The label reads only take 2 She takes thirteen and then three more Now she is puking all over her bedroom floor Her mom calls an ambulance not knowing what's wrong Her dad yells what the heck is going on? She stands up with a knife in one hand She runs after her dad yelling it’s your fault I am the way I am She then ends up in pine rest Her parents were told it was one of the best With nothing left to do but cry As that one tear filled her eye She said what's wrong with me why do I want to die? She decides to change her life saying this was the last time She gets the help she needs but when she gets back home She seems to find her self back down on her knees yelling no daddy please The depression just gets worse Dying is another thirst She slits her wrists to release the pain It's been 2 years of not saying a thing All she wants to do is die She's about ready to blow another fuse but yet she's so confused The confusion and depression seem to collide making tears fill her eyes So she starts to pack not really wanting to go back But she notices the depression starts to crack. she is now glad she went back. Yes that girl was me, and it was a hard thing to go through but I made it through okay

Do they see

2007-08-30T15:19:00.001-07:00

DO THEY SEE

© By Tara E. Threet

I wonder do they see the pain within her soul

Do they see the broken heart of the child

I wonder do they see the hate and rage that she hides

Do they see the sadness in her eyes

I wonder do they see the hurt and the fear

The anger and the hate

I wonder do they see her longing to be held

Do they see her fight back the tears that she so desperately wants to cry

I wonder do they see the cuts and scrapes

Do they see her wanting a real home a place to call her own

I wonder do they see do they really

Bottle

2007-08-30T15:12:00.000-07:00

The Bottle

© By Liz M. Perez

Dip Dip
The liquor hits the floor
Wobbling and weak she feels for the door
Depression fills her body and mind
Hurting the middle daughter
Her words are so unkind
Belittling and bashing seem easier to do
Than dealing with her issues
One by one or even two by two
She's done screaming lies
She laughs a little when her daughter cries
Sip Sip
As life fades away
She passes out on the couch
And dreads another day
Her daughter is so angry
Yet, she still cares
Because although angry, she is more scared
She picks her mom up
And brings her to bed
Tucks her in the sheets
And kisses her head
The daughter walks up stairs
Questioning why she still cares
Climbs into bed
Drifts away with pain in her head
Dip Dip
The liquor hits the floor

Save me

2007-08-30T15:07:00.000-07:00

Save Me

© By Jennifer L. Chambers

As I put the razor to my skin,
I feel the adrenalin,
the pain is a sudden rush to me,
as the blood falls to the floor
I see my pain and worries disappearing.
I hide my scars in fear of what you may say,
but without you these scares will not exist.
My love, my life, my reason
I sit here and bleed.
My smiles, my tears,
my heart tares more and more.
You deny your love, I deny my pain.
The pain I feel when your not by my side.
Some call it love I call it suicide.
The razor can only go to deep,
a person can only bleed so much,
but the pain never ends.
My nights are cold, my arms are empty
The cuts cover up the pain,
My smile covers up the hurt
As you walk along to blind to see my hurt
the days get harder
the nights never seem to end
I fake a smile and wipe my tears away
I forget the truth.
For when I am with you it feels so right.
Without you I find myself lost and confused. Broken and torn.
Kiss my pain away,
Wipe away my blood filled tears,
I long for you to save me

The Battle Within

2007-08-30T15:01:00.000-07:00

The Battle Within

© By Rachel A. Gibbs

Sleepless nights,
dreadful dreams,
are haunting me.

The mysterious sounds
of the night,
are very frightening me.

Panic and rage
Runs through my body
The devil is trying to get in.

Day after day
I fight off the urges
That would be so satisfying

A battle rages
Deep within my soul
It's all I can do to hold on.

Prayer is my weapon,
faith gives me peace of mind,
to stop the demons from taking over.

Depression knocks me down,
Grace picks me back up,
As the battle still rages

I pray and pray
For the fight to end
But I know the battle is still within.

If all the world

2007-08-30T14:59:00.000-07:00

If all the world

© By Eowyn Wilcox

if all the world were but a room
and I an inmate in it,
I should sleep day and night
and watch the fan tracing
circles on the wall.

if my room were all the world
and I could stay inside it always,
I should sit in my chair with my
mind adrift and watch the leaves
as they changed.

if my room and the world were
one and the same,
and I could live inside it,
I would drift happy from morning
to night, dreaming dreams of dreams
and watching the light
hovering like butterflies
on my brain,
shifting and melting
and flowing into
the wall.

She's ended

2007-08-30T14:47:00.000-07:00

She's ended

© By Nikki D. Brueggemann

Her eyes are swollen.
Her cheeks are red.
Tears pouring out of the lonely girl.
Love was all she asked for.
She got walked all over.
It seemed that no one cared for what she believed in.
As she lays in her bed, saying a prayer to make the pain go away.
She can't sleep, so she steers at his picture.
Trying to put the memories in her past.
She's waits to see, how she's going to make it.
As she struggles to get out of bed, thinking of what went wrong.
She has lost all the faith and all the happiness.
She is lost in the waking of her day.
As she has no one to talk to.
She's done everything to try to make it.
As one night she made her choice,
She can't live without him.
She swore that she couldn't make it without him.
As days go by, she doesn't want to come out.
She wrote him a note, saying that she will always love him.
One night she lost it.
Her mom came to get her because he came to see her.
She can't get her to answer her or the door.
As they break in her room, they have found out they lost her.
She lays with the note and his picture on her chest.
He was too late, she was gone and all he does is scream.
She had finally ended her pain.

Older Now

2007-08-30T14:45:00.000-07:00

Older Now

© By Christopher M. Harris

Older now.
The rain finally stopped. David called for you again and I almost told him. I've become so lost that the difference between the bricks stacking up and falling away has become a blur. I know you're still around, just like the rain. I can't find you. I drove for hours last night looking. But the gray box of depression has moved into my flat and already paid last months rent. Two years ago my dad would have said I was crazy. But now, he just watches the tv, condoning all the books he used to read, like a cancer.
He gave up on Easter.
You got a letter today. For some reason it reminded me of that song by Charlie, you know the one you used to change the words to. I put it with the others. The letter, not the song. I only have six weeks left until my term is up. I figure Boston is as good a place as any. Beats all the invitations to Frisco that Ash keeps sending.
I'm so tired of apologizing. Tired of wishes and headaches. I'd ask for a new breeze of something hopeful but, ' well you remember what happened the last time. I just don't have it anymore. Yesterday, when I was driving around, I saw a bumper sticker that said 'Breathing is what you make of it.' I had to pull over. You won't remember but you said that exact thing to me once. I think we were either camping or on the beach in San Martin. I could be wrong. Might have been that time we were stuck in an elevator. My jaded hope hangs on those little things. The ones that make you believe in coincidences. I know you're still out there.
It started raining again.

Suicide

2007-08-30T14:43:00.000-07:00

Suicide

© By Renee L. Bacon

Life is never good for me and this is what I wish you'd see.
Just let me end it all for I'll be happy in the end, I'll finally be free.

Free from all the pain and torment and the never ending battle.
No more dealing with the arguments and tears, I'd finally be through with it all.

You just don’t seem to understand that by keeping me here your making it worse.
If I were dead and gone by now I'd be happy, I wouldn’t have this life, I wouldn't have the curse.

I’m already considering doing this even without your consent.
I know for sure that once its all over with my heart will finally be content.

So here I am just sitting there, on my bed with a knife to my wrist.
Please everyone don’t be upset, please don’t be pissed.

You just need to know I love you all but couldn’t handle it anymore.
Ok here I go, I’m doing this for sure.

You just need to let me go to heaven now, hopefully God will understand and accept this.
Just tell my baby I love him and I’m sorry I couldn’t give him one last kiss.

Tell everyone I love them and that I'm sorry I had to go so soon and leave them all behind.
But I just needed to end it all and start a new life so happiness I could find.

These are the last words I'll ever be writing down.
I know they are harsh but don’t worry, rest your head, be at ease, don’t make a sound.

Know that I love you and always have but I need to think of me right now and so I said goodbye.
Be happy without me and know that I'm somewhere good, somewhere up high.

I just hope your not crying, I want you to know everything will be ok.
I'll be watching over you and listening to what you have to say.

Just have patience, wait till the day, and I'll see you up here in heaven and we can be together.
Except this time things will be better and you'll see me happy, always and forever.

So stop your weeping and know this was the best thing for me
It was my time to go, your time to set me free.

If all the world

2007-08-30T14:41:00.000-07:00

If all the world

डिप्रेशन 2

2007-08-30T14:40:00.000-07:00

Depression

© By Sarah N. James

The loneliest thing I know
As I sit recalling the past
A lost little girl all alone
Wishing for peace at last

A big smile and bright blue eyes
Was how my secret safely slept
I did good hiding the depression
Locked in my room while i wept

I was invisible to my mother
Lost because acquaintances weren't true friends
But the saddest thing I recall
Was wishing for the end

The loneliest thing I know
Used to be myself
And I probably wouldn't have made it
If my friends hadn't helped

Depression

2007-08-30T14:36:00.000-07:00